Wednesday, September 30, 2009


So I had my 28 week appointment today and realized I gained 9 pounds in 4 weeks.  NOT COOL!  My doctor was not happy about it, but not totally rude about it either.  I am supposed to get my butt moving and eating less.  I tried to explain to him that I don't have that I'm eating for two mentality.  I am just lazy, and eating a lot of high calorie junk lately.  I guess it will be good old fashioned salads, protein and lots of water this next month.  Now that it is cooler outside, the hubby and I can start walking again.  Which is really hard these days because Holly is sitting on my bladder and walking is uncomfortable. Not to mention that I constantly feel like I have to pee, but when I go in, nothing comes out.  Super frustrating.

Other than the weight thing, the appointment went very well.  We listened to the heartbeat, which was 150 beats per minute and according to the doctor, perfect.  He also measured my belly for the first time.  He started the measuring tape down at my pubic bone and stretched it too the top of where my uterus is now located (which is up by my spare tire)  I am supposed to measure 1 centimeter for each week, and my measurement was 34 cm.  He thinks I was measuring ahead because of the extra fat, so he was okay with the measurement, not concerned that my baby could be growing too large.  So that was good.

Then we talked about the importance of the cord blood storage.  Working in the healthcare industry and familiar with all the research being conducted on stem cells, I fully understand the importance of investing in the storage of the cord blood.  However, it is super expensive.  I am already dealing with some surprise expenses before the baby and not to mention the fact that I am still trying to work in the extra bucks it will take for a nanny or daycare service when I get back to work.  I am going to keep crunching the numbers and see what else we can possibly cut budget wise to go ahead and store.  I am getting a really good discount from CBR (Coord Blood Registry) for being in the healthcare industry.  So not as expensive as it could be....  I also have the opportunity to create a baby registry with CBR, so people can make a donation towards the fee.  A lot to think about.  I am sure I will write more about it in detail soon.

Speaking of writing soon, I have this bee in my bonnet to write a little more about the histrory of my pregnancy starting with TTC, and the 1st and 2nd trimester.  Not to mention a little history and more formal introduction of who I am.  So keep an eye out for those posts coming soon. :)  I have a lot rattling around in my head, just no time to post these days.  All of you preggo's should understand that completely. LOL!

Well, best of luck to all the new mommies out there.  I have recieved a lot of great comments and emails about blog friends who are now expectings.  I can't wait to read about your journeys as well.

Take Care,

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Fat Fatphobia Give Away

Hi All,
I came across a link to Fat Fatphobia today, who is having a great give away.  You should stop by to check it out.  I was referred to her blog from A Daunting Tale of Scale Warfare, who I also follow.

As you can probably tell from this ungodly hour, that I am still struggling with sleep.  I am routinely getting my 4 hours and waking up.  Tonight, I thought I would catch up on my favorite blogs. 

Also, got the news back on my computer.  It would cost about $250 for a friend of my husband's to fix it.  We were pricing new laptops and thought maybe it would make more financial sense to upgrade my 3 year old unit, and buy a new one... SIGH!  Maybe for Christmas/Birthday.  In the mean time I will keep using my work laptop. 

Monday, September 21, 2009

Gestational Diabetes not for me!

Did I mention at my last appointment I took my one hour glucose test?  I think this little tidbit was forgotten because we found out the baby's gender and jumped right into the nursery shopping and decorations.

I have heard so many horror stories about the drink, about the blood draw, that I wasn't looking forward to it.  The doctor didn't give me any pre-test instructions.  He just said that when I check in for my appointment, the receptionist would give me the drink, follow her instruction and I was to hang around until the hour was up for the blood draw.

My appointment was early morning.  I was only awake 1 hour before arriving.  I had planned on not eating anything before my appointment, so they could get my fasting numbers.  I figured if I ate, it would be too close to the blood draw and it would give me a poor result.  Again, this was my personal preference, not the instruction from the doctor.

Sure enough, I checked in and was promptly given a small bottle of cold, orange flavor, glucose drink.  My only instruction was to drink within 5 minutes and let the receptionist know when I finished.  It tasted as sugary as a flat orange soda, but this one was fizzy.  It went down quickly, no bad aftertaste or gave me any nausea from being so sweet.  Maybe because I have consumed tons of sugar over my lifetime that I wasn't affected by the excess sugar taste?  Not sure, but really didn't see what the big deal was.  If anything, I drank it too fast and got a little heartburn from chugging the fizzy drink.  I let the receptionist know I was done, and she informed the blood pathologist, (they have their own in their office) to start the time.

Timing worked out great, because after a short wait,  we went in for our appointment with the doctor, which ate up most of the hour.  The doctor reminded me to not leave until my blood draw, and that he would call me only if the results came back with GD.  So, no news would be good news. 

About 15 minutes later, the blood pathologist called me in for the blood draw.  She took another 2 vials of blood.   We go straight for the butterfly needle in the hand, because the nurses can never get a good shot of the veins in my arms.  They appear, but are too deep under the skin and flab to easily stick.  It was a quick process.  She just wanted to know if I ate a normal breakfast, which I told her I didn't, and that was the end of it.  No fuss, no muss.

The better news?  It has been 2 weeks at I never did hear from the doctor. so I guess no gestational diabetes for me!  Woo Hoo!  I will get confirmation from the doctor at my next appointment, Sept. 30th.

Sunday, September 20, 2009

Flu and broken computer

5 days later and I am just starting to feel human, after the worst attack of the flu ever! I would normally bounce back from something like this pretty quickly, but this little baby of mine just zaps all my usual resources. 

It was great to stay in bed for 4 days straight, but my computer broke and I was without entertainment.  I can only watch so much Home Improvement during the day without going nuts.  I have to get it fixed this week.  Hopefully, it is just the video card and can be easily repaired.  I really don't want to have to buy a new laptop right now, I have baby things to buy.

Monday will start my 27th week.  I am 1 week away from starting my 3rd trimester.  I never thought I would see this day come.  Honestly, the first 20 or so weeks dragged so slowly, and now I must admit they are buzzing by.  I am 13 weeks away from my due date.  Daniel and I like referencing it in weeks, rather than months.  Seems like less time that way. 

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Another Cold

So now I know why I was so tired yesterday.  I woke up this morning with a head that feels as heavy as a bowling ball, body ached so badly I couldn't move, a fever, and swollen eyes.  Yup, I caught another cold.  It hit me out of the blue, like a ton of bricks.  This is the second cold I have experienced with this pregnancy.

I stayed home from work today and tried to get comfortable to sleep as much as I could.  It was hard to find a comfortable position.  The baby was moving constantly too.  I think it was because I was still and the movements were more noticeable.

After work, the hubby brought me home some Tylenol Cold/Flu for day and nightime use, which is on the approved medication list, and some more OJ.  I go through spells of hot and then cold.  It stinks.

On a good note, tonight we could see the baby kicking and my belly rippled.  It was visible to the husband and he was able to feel her move for the first time too.  He was pretty excited about that.  :)

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Returning tomorrow

I have been working late the past two nights and am exhausted.  Will update tomorrow. Just wanted to say I balled my eyes out at the first 5 minutes of The Biggest Loser this year.  Abby's story tore me up!  I can't imagine losing my husband and baby so soon.  I don't know how she gets out of bed everyday.  She is getting stronger and I am totally rooting for her.

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Panic Hormones

Today was a tough for me.  I know that I easily get upset and worried about things that are beyond my control, but I can't help it.  I feel like I am the only one worrying about these things and if I don't, who will?

Today, I decided to start calling daycare programs to see who had openings for a 3 month old in April or how long the waitlists are.  I have never lived in a place where daycare was so full and difficult to get into.  Well, each place I called had waitlists at least 8 months long and wanted a minimum of $150 to reserve a space on the waitlist.  I started to panic, because I am not sure what I will do come April if none of these places pan out.  I am preparing for the arrival for a baby, so I can't exactly shell out $150 to 10 daycares in hopes I make it into one of them.  Hormones and emotions got to the best of me and I started to cry.  A lot!

I was a mess for a good long hour.  My husband and I moved out here to CA for work.  I am thousands of miles from all family and friends and have no one to lean on.  I don't have the luxury of my mother or MIL living blocks away and can take on the baby for us.  I just have me and my husband.  I am not leaving my job and I don't want Daniel to have to either.  (Plus, I am not going to work with him staying home.  That would just drive me nuts.)  I was upset with myself for taking the job out here and leaving our support system.  Was I stupid to make this move?  All my emotions started pouring out.  Uncontrollably.  Damn hormones!  I was never much of a crier, but now, I easily drop tears.  (I cried over a paint stripe in the nursery for heavens sake!!)

My husband keeps saying we will find a way, not to worry about it now.  My mother said the same thing.  Do they have a point?  I can't sleep at night worrying about what is going to happen in April 2010.  So many events have to take place and life changes with every twist and turn, that by April 2010, any decisions I made today, September 2009, could be irrelevant. 

I just have this overwhelming need to have my ducks in a row.  I am definately a planner, but am I taking it to an extreme?  Maybe the lack of daycare availability is a sign that scenario isn't the best for our family.  Maybe this is a sign that I should be seeking other alternatives.  It took a while for me to calm down, but I eventually did.  I know there are alternatives out there and I will find the right fit for us and the baby. 

I guess the point of this is, I consantly worry now.  I was a worry wart before, but now it is 100 times worse and my reactions are even worse.  I get a little mopey all over things that I cannot fix or handle today. 

Tonight, I am reminded of the movie "Knocked Up", when Seth Rogan screams "F-You Hormones!"  and that is exactly how I feel tonight.  F You Hormones!!  Stop making me nuts, irrational and emotional.  I want to sit back and enjoy this process, not be freaked out and paranoid all the time.

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Belly Pics

As of my appointment last week, I have gained 8-10lbs total. I think it is all in the spare tire above my waist. That is the only thing that seems to have noticeably popped on me. Hubby and I have been measuring my waist and I have gained a few inches, but not enough to make a difference in my B belly.

In the "plus size" pregnancy world, my belly is referred to a "B" belly. Where my belly resembles the letter B, the top spare tire, drawn in waist and then protruding fat flab on the bottom. It is every knocked up girls dream to have that nice round basketball belly or a "D" belly. In my message board conversations with other prepregnancy heavy preggos, I learned I am not the only one who still feels like I haven't started showing. It is pretty common and some women don't seem to have that big pop until right up to the time of birth, or not at all.

I want to have that I am showing feeling and want people to notice I am pregnant rather than just another fatty out of control. I have made an effort to wear maternity shirts that make my belly look more round D like and pants that have the bella elastic band, which also smoothes out the look of the B belly. I also touch my belly often and rub. Once I started doing this people started feeling more confident to ask me when I was due. I think they were just cautious before hand, not wanting to offend me if I wasn't pregnant. Which, I thank them for. Nothing is worse than your fatness being mistaken for pregnancy. I have had it happen before and was pretty humiliated.

As for maternity clothes, they are hard to find. I was already pushing out of a 3x, and a 26 pants before I got pregnant, so the standard 3x size maternity clothes don't always fit me. I can still button my pre-pregnancy work pants and have been hanging on to wearing those as long as I can. (Lane Bryant Right Fit Houston Pants, love them!) I find the maternity stretch jeans work well in my favor and most stretchy maternity t-shirts are wearable. Most of the non-stretchy fitted stuff that just has elastic in the middle were already too tight for me and wasn't leaving room for me to grow. Any maternity clothes I have were purchased at Motherhood Maternity outlets. I have been wearing some regular empire waist or baby doll shirts from Lane Bryant as well. Not maternity, but give you that emphasis on the belly. Ok, that was strange to write. I spent my entire life trying to hide my belly and now I am looking for shirts to emphasize it!!!?? That just dawned on me... WOW!

Now, if I can only get my boobs to grow... I always get jipped in the boob department. Compared to other women in my size range, I should be much heavier on top. In fact, most shirts from LB don't fit me right because I can't fill out the top! I thought I was supposed to get big boobs when I got pregnant. Right now, they are the same size, just heavier.  (TMI Alert - My areolas are the size of dinner plates now. They tripled in circumference.)

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Yabba Dabba Do Time

Holly is channeling her inner Fred Flintstone and is running in my belly, like Fred does to start his car.  I call it Yabba Dabba Do time.  It feels so strange, but cool at the same time.  I started feeling her around 18 weeks, just a few flutters here and there.  Since I hit 22 weeks, she is extremely active and I feel her kicking and punching.  Over this past weekend, I had my hand on my belly, she punched me and my hand jumped up.  It was wild.  I am still too fluffy for my husband to feel her kicks.  I have noticed my belly is getting a little harder each day and hope that he will be able to feel her soon.

Today marks my first true day of relaxation on my staycation and it was GREAT!  I spent the morning puttering around the house, reading blogs and then took a 2 hour nap.  The sleeping was the main point of this staycation, I needed rest.

Since the start of the 2nd trimester, I have had terrible sleep patterns.  Not only do I have to wake up 5+ times a night to pee, but I am feeling Holly move more, and having some crazy ass dreams.  I tend to wake up after about 5 hours of sleep and stay awake for 3 hours.  Just am wide awake and can't sleep.  I usually fall back asleep around 5 or 6am until I have to get up for work, at 8am.  The erratic schedule is messing up my day and I feel tired all day long. 

I have been reading in the pregnancy books that you are supposed to sleep on your left side when you reach 12 weeks or so, to help proper blood and oxygen flow for the baby.  I asked my doctor about this because I cannot stand to sleep on my side.  My shoulder throbs because of the excess weight put on it, and my hip goes numb.  I am a total back sleeper and am most comfortable that way.  The doctor said to sleep in whatever position makes me comfortable.  The baby or my body will tell me when I need to move to a more comfy position, naturally.  Well, he was right.  I recently find myself shifting to my left or right side and being comfortable there for hours on end.  So strange how your body reacts and adjusts when it needs to.  I still fall asleep on my back, propped up with lots of pillows,  (Imagine an upright position, as if I was sleeping on one of those craftmatic adjustable beds or hospital beds.), but wake up on my side.  Now, if I can only sleep through the night and get over some of these wild dreams... More on those in another post.

Hope everyone is having a good day... Off to relax for the night and catch the new 90210 and Melrose Place.  Bad tv is one of my guilty pleasures.. :)

Monday, September 7, 2009

It's a girl!

Well, a quick update on what has been going on since April... The first trimester was tough. Between working non-stop, morning sickness and just plain feeling terrible, my heart wasn't into writing. I was also pretty obsessed with looking up baby info online. To the point it was making me sad or paranoid. I took some wacky questions to the doctor and he said pregnant women shouldn't be reading for 9 months... LOL! So I stopped. I turned back to reading blogs, this time about weightloss and inspiration and they have been great. They inspired me to go back to blogging. So here I am!

I am officially 25 weeks today and feeling great. We found out last Wednesday we are having a girl, and immediately started to work on the nursery over the weekend. We completed it last night and I must say, it looks great! Thanks to my sister for gifting us the nursery furniture, decorations and of course labor. We never would have something so spectacular if we had to do it on our own.

2nd Trimester has been great. Much better than the 1st, and I love my doctor. Very size friendly and easy going. He only wants me to gain 10 - 15lbs and doesn't harass me about anything. I actually lost weight in the 1st trimester with all the morning sickness. The 2nd trimester I got my appetite back and has been hard to keep it in control. I only want to eat carbs and the bad ones at that! I want white pasta, and french bread. I had been off the white bleached flour prepregnancy and now I have a wild craving for it. Also, my taste for sugar came back and I have a steady supply of cookies or Little Debbies on hand. It is terrible. I do limit my sweet snacks to one or two a day, but I am eating them.

I am on vacation this week and plan on taking a much needed staycation. I will be getting my hair done, perhaps a mani/pedi and catching up on blogging. I started this for a journal of sorts of my pregnancy adventure and am excited to get it going again.

Take Care!