April 23, 2009 - I couldn't sleep last night. I was so conflicted. What if it was true? What if it wasn't? I can't be non-chalant about this, I COULD BE pregnant!! I tossed and turned and noticed I have to get up a lot to pee during the night. I have been doing this quite a bit lately, actually. Hmmm, another sign??!!
6:00am rolls around and I couldn't take it anymore. Daniel was asleep. I threw on some sweats and ran out the door to our local CVS. It is open 24 hours, and is around the corner. I held my first morning urine so I could take this new test and see if there was a change in plus sign status. I picked out the Clearblue Easy 3 pack test, old fashioned, with the plus sign. I don't trust the digital tests and they are more expensive. I get in my car and am back home by 6:30am. I rushed to the bathroom and tinkled on the stick. It seemed almost instantly I saw a plus sign!!!! YIKES!!!! I ran out of the bathroom and woke up Daniel. He smiled and asked if he could be excited yet. LOL!
I told Daniel he could go ahead and tell his family. I couldn't keep this secret and I did promise his mom would be the first to know. I didn't want to tell ANYONE outside of immediate family until I knew for sure and that I was in a safe zone to tell people. I have to get a doctor to confirm this. It's super early. I am probably only 4 weeks at this point. How was I supposed to concentrate at work today? I had a full day of meetings and wasn't in the right frame of mind to deal with any of them. I am dying to tell the world, but am also really cautious because I still don't believe it.
Daniel was great this morning. He got up and made me breakfast. An english muffin, a glass of OJ and brought me the folic acid vitamins I was taking a few months back.
I got dressed and headed into work early. I had lots to do. Like find a doctor! Coincidentally, my boss is about 7 months pregnant and has a great OBGYN. She has been ordered on bedrest this week, so I gave her a call at home. She was super excited for me and gave me the number immediately. She did warn me that the OBGYN group won't see anyone until they are at the 8 week mark. Uhhh, I was going to have to wait 8 weeks for confirmation? That was going to suck. I wanted the confirmation so I could start telling everyone.
I called the doctor and make the appointment. They asked me what was the first day of my last period, and I guessed it was around March 23rd. They calculated my 8 week mark should be around May 20th and scheduled my appointment for then. There is no way I can keep this secret for that long! I was going back to Miami to surprise my mom for Mother's Day on May 8th and wanted to break the news then, in person. But I won't have confirmation. Then again, if I didn't have a period by May 8th and my tests still come out positive, I think I would have pretty good odds that I was preggers. LOL!
I went to work and shared my secret with Sherri, by bosses executive assistant. I needed to tell someone and in the event I got sick or something, she would understand why. With my boss on bed rest, I have been helping the team fill in. I didn't want her or my boss to think I was flaking out or something. Sherri convinced me to tell my mom sooner rather than later.
Work was crazy busy as usual. I wanted to tell everyone, but kept my trap shut. I did have two slight spells of nausea. Very short, but did make the hairs on the back of my neck stand up and I could feel my throat get dry and the saliva thicken. I am going to have to bring snacks to work. I am still peeing like crazy, but I am also drinking a lot of water.
I came home from work, tired but still excited. Daniel had called his mom and she almost cried on the phone. He didn't tell his brother and his girlfriend yet, so we revealed it after dinner. They were very excited for us.
It was getting a little more real to me now. I slept better that night too. I did wake up early though and got up to tinkle a few times. I keep walking past the pregnany tests to make sure they are still positive. I know it is nuts, I just can't help it.
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